I'm down...

My monthly check up revealed a 3.2 loss for the month.  Not my finest but guess what....it's a loss and that's all that matters.  Could I have worked harder, MOST DEFINITELY.  With my lack of will power, my destructive eating, and my unwillingness to get back into working out I still managed to get down 3.2.  Go Me.  As of today 173.6.  So close to the 160s.  I'm sure you are rolling your eyes because you could care less asking yourself why are the 160s so important?  I will tell you.  I remember going to the dr's office and the scale reading 166.  I was up 10 lbs.  I was terrified.  I confided in my dr. and she assured me it was more than likely the medication I was on just to watch what I eat.  Needless to say, 6 years later I magaged to get myself up to 230lbs.  I want to sieze that moment, I want to sieze 166 and show her who is boss. 

This month's goals:

Hit 169lbs
Squat Challenge
Give up one food/drink

We've had several really busy weekends here lately.  Soccer season always poses this issue, but man do I love watching those little guys. "RN" has played 3 games already and doing such a good job.  I'm so proud of him and he loves it so much.  "NJ" will have his first game this weekend, can't wait to get some shots of that.

 

 

Last but most definitely not list in my week of adventures.  I got to attend The Majestic last night and partake in the wittiness of Bill Burr.  He is such a great comedian.  I love his anger!  I decided not to lug the camera around and just enjoy the moment, but no worries I had the iPhone 5 to at least take a shot of the old theatre.

 

Have you seen my mojo?

LOST:

Name: Mojo (AKA: determination, will power, strength, endurance)

Last seen: December 2012!

If found please return immediately!!!

I don't know what's going on I have lost my mojo. My inner fat girl has been hanging out with me, and she has this unbelievable hold on my soul. I'm like a battered wife, I know I need to kill get rid of her but I can't seem to! She's lazy, she has horrible eating habits and she tells me things like, "you look great now", "you will never lose another 40 lbs so why even try", "you love chocolate and its really not bad in large, undisclosed amounts". She hates waking up early to workout and she hates the fact that she now has to move her walk/runs indoors because its so hot. She definitely LOATHES even attempting to run!

I've learned recently that part of my issue is fear! I fear who I will become. I fear I will lose part of who I am. I fear I can't do things that honestly I know I can. Running: does it hurt? Yes. Could I go longer and give more? Yes. Could I use weights? Yes. Why don't I? I'm afraid I will run out of breathe (I'm pretty certain no one has ever died from running). I'm afraid of being sore, I'm afraid of throwing up. I'm afraid ill be thrown into a full blown panic attack. Until I conquer these fears I believe I will sit on this plateau in comfort and never move forward! What motivates you? What fears have you overcome?

Coronation. DON'T JUMP!

I had my first excited fail! Oh yea you'll get used to my made up lingo and non sense. DC got to go skydiving this weekend, or should I say didn't get to. Well that was the plan but the weather had other plans!

 

We waited for about 5 hours for the clouds to take a hike, and they didnt!  So we had to get back because CL had coronation that afternoon, and as a mom's duty i'm not allowed to miss these things.  It's in the parenting handbook somewhere, rule #15 I think.

 

Coronation, the who's who of high school.  Yes, nothing says we don't believe in cliques, like a peer lead event based on who gets the most votes!  Either way, I digress.  So CL is amongst the most popular this year. Let me just start a small rant also while i'm on this subject, in the past coronations (NJ was who's who the previous year) the attire was nice slacks and a button down.  This year they raised the bar and had all the parents get tuxedos.  REALLY, like we dont have enough to deal with and fork out money for as it is.  ANYWHO! So CL's coronation date (que the drama filled music...dunnn dunnn dunnnnnnnnnn) was not his girlfriend.  Oh yea, it was a little uncomfortable to say the least.  Jealousy reared it's ugly head.  CL seemed to have a great time anyway.  After coronation they all took their dates to Chili's for dinner and then Sonic for a little ice cream.  I'm still getting used to this getting home passed 8pm thing.  I don't remember seeing this in the note section of the parenting handbook, must have been in the fine print or the footnotes (I never read footnotes, so feel free to hide important info there.)

BIRTHDAY!!!

Ok the past two weeks have been a blur! So much going on and March is a very popular month for birthdays! Tons of friends and family with birthdays this month, including myself and NJ.

We started off the month with calling my mom at the crack of dawn to wish her a happy birthday. She lives the attention! Now we know where I get it from!

Next we celebrated my best friends little boys birthday. He turned 2! Oh yea tons of fun. He's so freaking adorable that it makes no sense what so ever! We had pizza and cake! I did really well.

Now onto my birthday week! Yes, you did not read that incorrectly! I celebrate a birthday week! I figure if i'm getting old I might as well enjoy the hell out of it. So my birthday week of gifts included:Sunday: A photography class (i've been wanting to take forever)
Monday: A mani/pedi!
Tuesday: iTunes giftcard
Wednesday: A digital picture frame for my office
Thursday: OAKLEY'S (not excited about this)!

Friday: Casemate iPhone 5 case


Saturday: Superhero Socks with cape!  (Oh yea i'll be rocking these on my runs!)



Oh yea and NJ got to celebrate his birthday on his day!  (I also figure if I have to share my birthday with my son, I might as well get an entire week since he gets all the attention!)  He had a blast!  We had a skip day and I took him to Dallas Cowboys Stadium for a tour.  Unfortunately, the turf wasn't down due to the fact that March Madness is taking place there.  What luck huh!  Then he got to go on a shopping spree at the mall, we ate at Dave & Buster's and he played video games, and we then ended the day with a movie.  The Caller, oh yea totally threw me into a panic attack.  Defintely a must see!  We didnt get home until late but he loved it and had such an awesome time.  I'm pretty stoked because I have 2 more of these birthday skip days (3 boys, 1 down, 2 to go).

Daylight savings = Longest Week Ever

I know how strange the title must sound but seriously, I didn't think Friday would ever get here. Time moved ahead on Sunday (#1 reason the week should have seemed short) and I took off work on Monday (#2 reason), there today should be Saturday...LOL!

So I started Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and I've come to the conclusion that she is satan! I was sore for 3 days and have moved on from being sore to just plain exhausted! My endurance is definitely getting stronger but I'm still gonna stick around for another 5 days on level 1.

 

 

I've been staying on track with my diet and trying not to get too carried away. This weeks guilty pleasure was "mashed potatoes"! I just had to have them! So we grilled some chicken and some corn to balance it out....Ha!

Sunday I spent a lot of time taking some pictures with the new camera since it really hasnt been nice enough to play outside with it.  Now that it it I took advantage.  I got some really good (I wont say great, it's still a work in progress) pictures.  Mainly of nature but there was a few of actual humans.  I have been looking at 2 new lenses, one being a wide angle lense and the other being one a photographer on a website suggested.  I'm still not comfortable enough with people and/or my skills to photograph strangers.  I will get there one day I hope.  Here a just a few randoms:

 

I'm hoping at some point to get in a photography class and maybe make time to read a book or two! There's a crazy thought!

This weekend we have a birthday party which means cake, pizza, friends, family and tons of pictures.  I will honestly try to minimize the cake and pizza but we will see how that goes!

Frustration!

Why do the weight gods hate me!?!? Seriously! I have been stuck between 174- 178 for 3 months now! I've up'ed my calories, I've up'ed my workout and I've even up'ed my water intake,still nothing! Is this it? Am I done? Does my body refuse to move forward? I refuse to believe that I won't make it to the 160's. there is something I must tweak and I just haven't figured it out yet. I have decided to add -hahaha- running to my routine!

I'm thinking if trying Jillian Michaels 30DS and see how that goes. Can't hurt, right? Can't hurt anything other than my muscles which will be good. Maybe I will start that this weekend and ill make sure to try and take measurements. We will see how we'll that goes...LOL!

Soccer season has officially start, so no free time for me. There will have to be lots of planning the next few months!

I'm an addict.....

Yes that's right. I'm an addict and my drug of choice, FOOD! All food! It's my comfort zone. It's there for me when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I've had a bad day, when I'm celebrating, hell any excuse. I'm an angry addict, you know the type, the one that gets hungry and if you like living I suggest you get me something NOW before I snap and take at minimum of 6 innocent bystanders with me! I kid, I kid.....kinda.

In May if 2012 I started the journey to break this vicious downward spiral. Time to take my life and health by the horns (little Texas reference for you)! So I started low carbing and walking. When I say walking what I mean is 15 min a day. Yes a mere 15 min and I would be exhausted. Slowly it increased and got easier. Now, 9 months later and 55 lbs lighter I'm doing 4-6 miles a day (no not at 15 min speed) in 2 hours. Yea I'm kinda a big deal now!

So why this blog? A place to put my thoughts, perhaps? A place to voice my opinion (without pudding of the people closest to me), a place to share my accomplishments ( without annoying those closest to me about the small things, and a place to seek motivation and support. Basically, just about me and my small journey in this rather large place we call earth.

A progression photo for you, thus far.