Have you seen my mojo?

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Name: Mojo (AKA: determination, will power, strength, endurance)

Last seen: December 2012!

If found please return immediately!!!

I don't know what's going on I have lost my mojo. My inner fat girl has been hanging out with me, and she has this unbelievable hold on my soul. I'm like a battered wife, I know I need to kill get rid of her but I can't seem to! She's lazy, she has horrible eating habits and she tells me things like, "you look great now", "you will never lose another 40 lbs so why even try", "you love chocolate and its really not bad in large, undisclosed amounts". She hates waking up early to workout and she hates the fact that she now has to move her walk/runs indoors because its so hot. She definitely LOATHES even attempting to run!

I've learned recently that part of my issue is fear! I fear who I will become. I fear I will lose part of who I am. I fear I can't do things that honestly I know I can. Running: does it hurt? Yes. Could I go longer and give more? Yes. Could I use weights? Yes. Why don't I? I'm afraid I will run out of breathe (I'm pretty certain no one has ever died from running). I'm afraid of being sore, I'm afraid of throwing up. I'm afraid ill be thrown into a full blown panic attack. Until I conquer these fears I believe I will sit on this plateau in comfort and never move forward! What motivates you? What fears have you overcome?